Already a thief in my entrance, taking you for all you had
Thought you were finished with your white picket fence, I was the finishing touch to add
Shared lifelines from the start for I knew nothing else
Not a tragedy or hardship, only fantasy grown where the ice always melts
I've never wanted to be anyone, I felt burdened to be your everything
Punished for the pain you endured though unbeknownst to me, this debt to which you cling
I bargained for my first journal early in my youth, why didn't you simply buy your own?
Comfort has always unnerved me, but in this feeling, I feel rather alone
As I've grown into my silhouette, I search for similarities - my hands finding none
There are no mistakes in a cold world, I'll never live in the shadows for what I've done
So outgrown of those children's clothes, I tunneled vision the only escape to be free -
The most antagonizing protagonist, ostracizing my differences so you'd finally be able to see
I stare teary eyed at the debris, feeling icy indifference to your doorbell rings
Even in my wisdom now, that desire to exasperate our differences still stings
I tried to stumble onto common ground yet the world engulfed me in its' curiosities
Polarized myself from the version that believed in the bedtime stories you sold as philosophies
You think I've strayed from who I would become, but that future is only your dream
I don't take for granted what you've never had, I just want us to bat for the same team
In moments of striking solemness, I want you to be my pillar of stone
Then I remember it's your first time at life too, so it's advice I'll now loan
I want you to know me, to truly understand
But understanding falls through your fingers like individual grains of sand
Come in from the rain, I started this fire to invite you inside
The only entry fee is an openness to the unknown & for that you must ditch your pride
I push off each letter I'd write, for once, I haven't any words pouring out of me
Compartmentalize every emotion when I cross the narrow sea
It strikes me how little I recognize, how much more experience I contain
I see how all you ever wanted was everything, the lack thereof left her stain
Resent those foreign prognosis' - purposefully going against the grain
Bringing to light all those adolescent wishes from my mind's terrain
I'd admit to such few that a cynic sometimes forms itself into my being -
An abrasive shield attached itself to me, making me all the less agreeing
You'd never understand, not unless you were me
Not unless you'd soared as high as I have with the vultures of sovereignty
On the day you finally see me for what I am, all these steps taken we can finally retrace
For you & I, I & you - two cards of the same face